My Story
From the Church to the Covenant
— Could This Be You Too? —
I wasn’t looking to leave —
I was looking for undeniable TRUTH.
Something older than buildings…
Stronger than Sunday sermons…
Holier than the words men taught me to say.
I wanted to know the God of Abraham, not the one they dressed up in Greek robes. I wanted to walk in His ways, not man’s traditions.
This is my journey—from pews to path, from religion to Covenant.
And maybe, just maybe…
you’re on that same journey too.
When I was but a child, I have always had this love for God. My mother taught me to love Him and to always pray to Him. I would read my little story books and my heart beat to the love that I have forever had. Time went on until before I became a teenager. To me God was always there for me. I had this profound love for Him. But before long I began, off and on, to go to church. Once when I went to church with my sister, I believe we were in a summertime church service. The man in the front tried to say that if anyone wanted to come to know the “Lord” then stay after service. I stayed and from that I prayed what I was told to pray and accepted Jesus as my savior. When I went outside my asked me if I had just got “saved.” I shrugged my shoulders and said, I don’t know, I guess.
Well, time went on and we moved to a place. During that time my parents were have some problems and my dad left. I was so sad when that happened. They decided to be counseled by an old Apostolic preacher; one from the old school, from back. Well, one service that I can remember, when I was about 12 years, the preacher said if anyone wanted to come up and pray at the altar then they were welcome. With tears streaming down my face, I looked at my mother and she knew I wanted to go up. With a tender heart I knelt at the altar and poured my heart to God and asking Him to bring father back home. Very shortly after that he did come home and I was happy.
During that time, we began going to church at this man’s church. It was there when I was baptized in Jesus’ name and spoke in tongues. I lived very deeply and heartful in the church. I taught myself to memorize scripture and I was nearly a walking Bible. After a few years I got into high school and it was then I found myself lonely and wanting companionship of a good girl. I left the church then and later joined the U.S. Navy.
I was stationed in Mayport, Fl. a beach town outside of Jacksonville, Fl. One night I made a phone call to a church way over in Jacksonville. If you know anything about Jacksonville you will know that Jacksonville is the largest city land wise in the entire U.S. Well, this church I found was affiliated with the United Pentecostal Church. This organization was the largest Oneness religious organization in the world at the time. While I was going there I had my girlfriends just like everyone else. It was not until I saw this certain beautiful redhead I believe I had ever seen. Now, you have to keep in mind that I never did care much for redheaded girls, I always like blonds and brunettes. However, this particular one just so happened to catch my eye. The problem was, she already had a boyfriend at the time. We met and became friends, unbeknownst to either of us he had another girlfriend in secret.
Well, my ship had to go underway and I had to leave. But, before I did, we were at a fund-raiser one time prior to my deployment. She gave me here address to write to her. I knew then I was not going to pass up that opportunity. While I was away, I wrote her all the time. She also wrote to me. When we pulled back into port I knew they having a function somewhere and that’s just I went (and hoping she’d be there). I walked and the first word coming out of her mouth I got your letters; did you get mine? The caveat in this was her boyfriend was standing just a few feet away from her, I guess he’d just walked in.
Some time later my ship was making a deployment overseas for 6 months. During that time, I made up my mind that I was going to write to her the entire time. You know what, she did too. To make a long story short we got married soon thereafter. I was going to ship out to another duty station across the country, and I told her. Needless to say, that did not make her very happy, so I took her with me.
During my time in the Navy, we traveled extensively. We had our two boys and stopped right there. I wanted to stay in the service but I couldn’t. Throughout those years we went to church and loved God but somehow all during that time I knew, I just knew, something was not quite right. You see, I am a staunch truth seeker. I have sought truth all my life. When I was in the church I continued to study, and study, and study some more. I did research, wrote articles, and books. I still felt that deep nagging there was more out there, spiritually. I just knew that it had to be out that and I just did not know exactly what I was looking for but I would know if and when I found it.
Later in life I became a locksmith. I had my own business at the time. It was not until a elderly woman called me to do some work for her. I did not know, at the time, that it would be this woman who would turn my world upside down. During my time there I was talking to her and I noticed some Hebrew books on her coffee table. I asked if she was able to read Hebrew and she said no, she was just learning it. This conversation turned into a longer one, when she said, I want to be baptized in the name of Yeshua’. I told her that I knew someone who would do it in Jesus’ name. She commenced telling me that it is not same. I told her it was, and we went back and forth, but accomplished little.
As I was leaving, she loaned me two books to read. One was, Come out of Her My People, by C.J. Koster, and the other one was Fossilized Customs by Lew White. When I got home, I read the former one and, to say it lightly I was stunned and taken aback. I simply did not know what to say or do. I told my wife about what I read and how “Jesus” name was actually “Yeshua’” or so I thought and read. She read this and because she had been in church all her life, she could never understand why our church did not use that name. In our denomination, if you don’t have that name “Jesus” on you through baptism you are going to hell. It was the higher ups, if you will, in the organization that she blamed. Why did they not baptize people in the name Yeshua’? IF that was his name, why did they not use it? Was it the same? Many would say yes, but was it? This was the start of my beginning to question everything I had been taught.
The next Sunday I went to church to tell the preacher that I knew a woman who wants to be baptized in the name of Yeshua’. I asked if he would do it. He gave me an adamant NO! I asked again, why, why won’t you baptize her in the name of Yeshua’. After all, was that not his name when he walked the earth? When I asked that question, he told me that he was not going to talk about this and very swiftly walked off. I knew then, there was something very wrong. But what was it that just did not feel right? I had to investigate further.
It was then that I knew I had to find out what was going on and what am I missing here? After that time I began a search on these matters. I found out that more than likely his name was possibly Yeshua’ when he was alive. The more I dug, the more I uncovered. This whole thing led me and my wife to go to a local Messianic Congregation. However, for some reason it felt just plain empty there. I found others who were Messianic and those who mostly believed like we did, but something still was missing. I kept reading and searching for what it was I was searching for. It was not until I became friends with a Jewish man who taught from the New Testament and how it was possibly butchered and to read according to the agenda that centuries ago the Universal Church wanted the population to think.
The Jewish friend that I had, had setup an online teaching seminar once a week. One of those lessons shook me to the core. His teaching was that Jesus was not God. Before his teaching I was horrified for anyone to claim this; after all, doesn’t the Bible say that he is? After hearing him out I had to do more independent research and studying. During this time, I was online friend of a man who was scholar who was translating the Aramaic New Testament into English. I bought his book, and I was not terribly impressed with it as it, seemed to me, was just another English translation not much different from what was already out there. A time finally came up in my mind a question that I simply could not let go. I wondered, in my own mind, if Jesus was the Messiah, then how could he be when he was born of a virgin? I asked my scholar friend this and his answer was that Joseph adopted Jesus. I knew right then that was wrong. I knew also that Jewish adoption would never work for the Messiah. The coming Messiah must be in the bloodline of Kings David and Solomon.
It was at that time I was, well, I guess you could say, I was getting scared. All these houses of cards were all tumbling around me and I did not know what to do, who to talk to, or anything. I was scared, I did not want to become a man without God, without hope or anything.
It was not until my research and studying brought me to where I am today. I’m not Jewish, but I try living by the Torah, both me and my wife. It is now that I have contentment in my heart and my mind is at ease to know that I have found what my heart has been searching for, for many years. I am studying Hebrew; I have found out some very deep and profound things that are in the Hebrew Scriptures. The Torah is for everyone who want to embrace the Covenant of YHWH. The Torah is not a bunch of hardened dos and don’ts. If you’re here reading this then please allow me to express my deepest gratitude and thank for coming to my website. On this website you will learn things you probably won’t anywhere else. The Torah (Law) what most people call it is a Love Letter to anyone who will embrace it. If you do not believe this then I would like to challenge you to go through this website and prayerfully consider all of which is written. If you can’t agree or wrap your mind about what is being taught then I pray that you and I can still be friends. We can agree to disagree. However, if you should happen to see what I see then Praise to the Most-High, and you will learn things you have never heard of before. This website is an ongoing and (I hope) growing one that all those who come to visit will have at least learned something. Whether you believe or not, we all have our beliefs. My perspective is based on the Hebrew Scriptures entirely, it’s not what I think, or believe, or even my opinion. Let the Scriptures speak for themselves.
My Testimony
If you’ve read this far… maybe you’ve felt it too.
That stirring in your spirit.
That whisper that says, “There has to be more.”
I didn’t leave the church because I was angry—
I left because I was hungry.
And when I turned back to the words of the Most-High,
I found not just answers, but life.
If something in this story echoes within you…
then maybe the Ancient Path is calling your name too.
Come walk with me. Let’s rediscover the covenant together.
Thank You